wat am i doiin??

wat am i doiin lately??
doiin things..
but don seem 2 haf heart in doiin anythingy...
haix..
some more my skin problem is gettin worst le..
gd luck 4 me le wor...
haix...
now i think i know y do some ppl feel tat i everytime need ppl pity le...
cause they feel tat i wan ppl 2 pity on me...
is just tat i fake my laugh till i don even know when am i really laughiin or fake again...
mayb i haf 2 stop 2 make fun of myself...
stop puttiin on a clown mask le...
wear the old mask back...
mayb...
see lor i try lor...
hopefully if i change, my suxiin life mayb much more happy le ba...
it`s still feel so hurt when even she scold me or talk about her bf thingy...
haix..
am i tat worthless 2 her...
as in a useless person 2 her??
haix...
i know i aint a very usefully person...
but am i tat worst tat i don even worth 2 b talk about???
haix...
hate it so much...
haix