quite a gd day 2day...

is been so long tat i had family dinner wif my family le...
but the only thing is tat my brother is not there...
but better then nth...
4 yrs ago...
when my brother leave this house, the family was lik haix...
don know how 2 explain...
can only say...
very bad...
is really been so long tat i had jokes n talk wif my parent le...
is really so long...
but...
haix...
will it last...
i just find out 1 thing...
my mother is 52 this yr le...
my father is 54...
they r so old le...
but yet me...
still so unless...
i don really hate my brother n sister of unable 2 let my parent 2 live good life...
is just tat..
sometime i really wish i was not born in a poor family...
not bcome i hate poor or wat...
is just tat i don wan my family 2 worry about money so much...
beiin poor is not only i am tired...
my parents..
so old le still haf 2 work...
i really don know wat i can do le...
really unless indeed...

mayb a gd bye 2 singapore le ba..

seem lik my family is really goiin send me 2 study at other country le...
then is really bye bye 2 this place...
even thought tat is around another 5 yr b4 i go...
or even another 2 or 3 yr...
i thought i can put her aside my mind le..
but now i know no matter how i hide it.. 4get it...
the pain is still there..
or rather the love 4 her is still there...
mayb after i go out n live, study in a place tat is a very new place 2 me could let me 4get..
or get over it..
i kind of return 2 i was 13..
where i darn close my fuckiin heart...
now...
my GOOD FRIEND is becomiin bigger n bigger...
tat mean i start 2 look myself more useless...
start 2 fear alot of things...
nowaday i really dislik if any1 touch me or get close 2 me...
tat is wat i fear...
bcomiin hu i am last time...
but is it not better then me better then bcomiin bad??
at least i wont hurt any1 but myself....
hope she happy 2 b hu she is now...
loviin u even till now rebecca..
tc k gal...
smile alway...

haha finally i can think of other thing other then her...

haha this 2 weeks after o i haf 2 stress on my project le...
really stress...
worst then o`s...
o i lik take it nth lik tat..
but this end of year project 4 my ITE was lik...
haix..
we haf 7 ppl in the group...
but we w0rk as sand...
i was doiin model makiin...
was lik hell...
i haf 2 rush the model by 2 days...
mean tat i cant sleep 4 tat 2 days...
haf 2 show the model by friday..
when on friday..
the model was only 80% finish...
haf no choice...
haf 2 show the teacher...
but ok la
the model was nice..
but it was incomplete...
haix...
then the stupid teacher say...
the 3D model 27th then show de...
no need now de...
i was there diao...
i spent 2 days wifout sleep 2 finish the model then in the end i still got lik another 2 more weeks 2 finish it...
never mind lor
i rest 4 afew days then start 2 do again lor...
haix..
but the most heart breakiin things is tat...
my team mate don belive in the thing i do..
i really hope there some1 there 4 me...

is been so long b4 i bloged 5/11

is been so long b4 i blogged...
haha
i find out tat really only love keep me goiin..
only love can make me fall...
another 26 days..
6 months le...
haha
now then i knoe..
from the first time i haf gf...
this is the first time tat i stop so long single...
the first time when i was really heart broken...
i am not as down as now...
haha
the pain...
6 month le...
still the same feeliin...
y is tat so...
sometime i really don knoe wat am i doiin...


i really don know wat she is thinkiin...
really...
there is alot of ans`s given 2 me...
some say she don dare 2 face me...
or don know how 2 face me...
y??
she say she will take me as friend...
but is this how she treat friends??
no lor...
i really find out my life sux...
darn boriin life...
haix...
wat am i doiin??
i really wan 2 woo her back...
wif the way i doiin now..
there is almost no way tat she will b mine again...
there is another way...
but i really don wan 2 use it...
i oso know if i use this other way, she will b mine again...
haix...
4get it le la
wat can i do??
i already gif up w0rkiin at intercon bcuz of her le...
wat else??
gif up loviin her???
i really cant do it...
i just bought a jacket 4 her a few days ago...
wonderiin how am i goiin 2 pass it 2 her...
haix...
wonder will she throw it away...
haix...
4get it la..
don think 2 much le la...
must go sleep le...
2morrow still got exam...
nite...