another 3 months will b my 21th birthday...
alway wanted some1 2 celebrate wif me..
but seem lik i haf 2 celebrate myself again...
21th birthday i quite important 2 me...
but yet i haf 2 celebrate myself again...
so wat if i got alot of friends??
hahaha
i still haf 2 celebrate myself...
sux feeliin...
but yet this is life...
it alway sux`s...
isnt it??
i smile i laugh but my heart is not tat way...
wtf..
weariin a mask???
not really..
smiliin 2 other is another way of me 2 get around wif things...
even if i smile even if i am not happy does not say i am actiin or fakeiin..
is just i haf 2...
i joke i talk cock...
n tat is wat u think i am..
then u r wrong i am more than tat...
is just tat i never show hu i am r...
mayb is another way 2 protect myself from beeniin hurt again...
hu is able 2 understand hu i am???
haix...
hmm i found out i start 2 bcome emotionless le...
i really need some1 help..
but..
i never receives...
hope 2morrow is a better day...
hope n pray
