hopefuly not....

seem lik me n jeremy wont b tat close le ba...
haix...
sometime i hate myself...
alot of time when i help..
they wont understand..
n ofcuz...
the way i help them seem funny...
i pull his pants down not really bcuz of fun...
is bcuz..
i wanted 2 let his friends say bad things about me..
so tat the gal he lik wont think he is a gay...
but...
haix..
i know is not rite..
but i just feel tat i haf 2..
i know wat will happen....
tat y..
haiz..
4get it le la...
i use 2 b the bad person..
don mind another time..

is it my body is gettin worst??
the pain in my body is gettiiin worst everyday...
gettin more tired..
hopefully not...
hopefully is i think 2 much...
haix....