haix.. the more i understand the worst i get...

sometime i just hate myself 4 liviin in this world...
or the time i in...
cause the thinkiin i haf...
is aint at my age...
put it this way...
the age i am now in...
is the kid...
then thinkiin i haf..
is the old man...
when u put both 2gether...
there will b a crash...
tat cause alot of problem now...
haix...
seem lik i haf 2 make a choice now...
or this problem will get worst...

sometime i really hate myself 4 hafiin this old man inside me...
but again...
ytd suddenly i understand this..
i haf this old man is bcuz wat happen 2 me in the past...
n those idiot things tat happen is bcuz of my skin problem...
but wat if i don haf this type of skin problem wat type of person i will b??
i will b a fucker...
a person will only think 4 himself n only care 4 himself...

now i start 2 know wat the fuck did god get me this type of skin problem...
is 2 let me understand things...
but how much does god wan me 2 undestand till my skin get better???
haix...

4get it la....
tired of thinkiin this type of things le...

this few weeks...
really alot of things happen...
i almost do tat thing wif my god daughter...
work oso fuckiin alot of problem...
family 2...
haix...

o ya this yr i understand something in life...
if we really wan 2 do things rite..
as in do gd in business or study or even in bgr...
u will need only 3 things....
ur heart...
ur eye..
n ur hands...

rebecca is moviin house le...
i think is 2day or next week ba...
seem lik is really a bit bit 2 her le wor...
hahaha
shit...
y do i still love her tat much..
shit shit..
haix 4get it la..
thi is life...
when u love some1
is very hard 2 not love tat person...
mayb i should learn from her...
hate her..
hahaha
but i just cant...
haix..