is been so long since i blog...

is been so long since i blog...
so many things happened...
i thought after leaviin intercon..
i wont not able 2 see her again i wont feel 2 much just miss..
tat is wat i thought tat was the only problem i haf..
but it aint it...
is just tat rebecca thingy cause me not seeiin 2 much of others problems...
let see this few month wat haf happened??
haf some problem wif money...
then broke kinship wif bro..
haf a very big fight wif parent...
been lik a stranger 2 them now...
new w0rk problems...
o ya..
lost some friends bcuz of bro...
been more n more don know wat i should do...
i think tat it ba...
haix...
sometime i rather 2 b a very normal person or even a ugly fat person...
then me...
i hate myself...
i really do...
hate i haf this type of skin problem..
hate i haf this type of family..
hate 2 haf a thinkiin ahead of others...
hate myself unable 2 explain things 2 other...
hate myself unable 2 express 2 others...
i even hate myself 4 not beliviin myself...
i really tired...
really do..
so many time i so needed a shoulder, in the end i ended up lend others my shoulders...
i really don know how 2 ask ppl 4 help...
or mayb i 2 use 2 gifiin???
gifiin in...
guess wat...
i run in2 a friend tat i know long ago..
he say i change so much...
i was never a push over...
i rather hit tat person tat pushes me then gif in 2 tat person...
but he say...
is better tat way la...
can go on better then i use 2 b...
he oso say..
scare wat..
u not cant fight not cant hit back..
u just choose not 2 only..
when u do...
pls tell me, i will run 2 KL sia...

hahaha
was i tat scary???
i didnt know sia...
the only thing i know is tat..
i goiin 2 army soon..
i plan 2 go oversea study...
hopfully tat my oversea study will let me 2 b happier...
let me 4get those unhappy things...

still the same thing...
hope u will happy..
but i don know y...
i still loves her...
even thought is pass by a yr plus le...
shit...
now ppl thought i am a gay sia...
haix...
tc rebecca...