wat am i doiin???

got a new bed on sat...
nice but abit of girlish...
some more in white...
OMG lor...
haix but better then don haf a bed la...
ytd nite i saw a white bat lor...
i was lik o a bat...
then think of it...
how often do u see a white bat...
haha
i was lik sayiin...
must b good thing goiin 2 happen ba...
but again...
it mayb bad thing...
but i belive tat will b gd thing will happen ba...
or worst come 2 worst..
nth happen ba...
haha

is lik nowaday i lik don even know wat i must do...
or should do...
ytd i heard a chinese song tat was sayiin tat a guy find a present 2 gif his ex a present on her bday...
then the gal say we not break up le ma???
the present gif ur future gf...
then the guy was lik thinkiin tat didnt she say we r still friends even if we break up??
y cant i gif u present??
this song was really lik wat happen 2 me sia..
haha
but i was worst..
cause my ex almost call police..
haha
now i know y some ppl lik 2 sleep..
cause they wan dream...
dream was everytime very happy..
haf a good time...
but when we wake up...
those was just the dreams...
i don know y...
i keep dreamiin of her back wif me sia...
haha

i really don know wat i doiin now sia...
i just know 1 thing...
if my skin can get better..
i mayb able 2 move on...
or will belive in myself more...
i just know tat my skin problem is getiin bad 2 worst lor...
i know i should not mind how ppl look at me...
cause i just hu i am...
but the thing is tat..
the world don turn 4 me...
is 4 the life on earth...
if say i don mind how others look at me is fake de lor...
but i don really mind..
just tat i don wan ppl take me as a monster...
it really don feel gd at all...

anyway i just wan 2 say tat...
i am hu i am...
most of the time u may just see me play around..
lik idiot...
or lik lazy not doiiin things tat i should do...
it does not mean i am lik this...

wat a yr wat a bday..

haix... seem lik my bday is getiin worst every yr...
but at least this yr bday was better...
firsty the is 3 group of ppl celebrate my bday...
the first group i really love them sia...
haha
haha my mother rmb my bday...
this yr was the first time any1 bought me a bday cake sia...
somemore i was shock tat lynn bought a cake 4 me..
haha
wat a gd friends sia... haha
even thought there is some no so happy things happened...
but..
i don really mean...
at least i got a bday cake...
at first i thought it was so food cause i saw the box was polo..
i was lik thinkiin ltr goiin eat steamboat le still buy food ar...
but it turn out 2 b my BDAY CAKE...
happy..
n shock in a way sia...
then the sec group..
was wen kang they all help me celebrate de...
went 2 play pool then after tat i went 2 w0rk le...
after w0rk was meet the last group of friends...
went 2 club.. or can say drink...
at first went a club call home club or wat de...
then went 2 a thai disco...
after tat went 2 jeremy house...
talk crats eat mac...
then after tat me n vincent went house le...

haix.. this yr was really a happy yr at first...
cause this yr was the happiest bday i should haf...
but the celebrate of my bday was not on the 20th...
i leave my bday 2 rebecca...
wanted 2 meet her de...
but on my bday she never come...
meet her was want 2 pass her her present n haf a talk 2 her only...
tat all...
but she never think tat way at all...
she just feel tat i darn irritatiin..
from afternoon i waited till 8 pm...
then i was thinkiin...
i know she never will come wat 4 i wait??
but tat was a promise tat gif myself...
then i was lik think go her house pass her the present la..
hopfully can haf a talk wif her...
but when i went her house she was still at her bf house...
then only her little brother was at hm...
i was lik haix..
then never mind lor..
just call her brother 2 put the present in her room...
but i was afraid tat her mother will see...
so i told her brother i go in 2 put the present la...
but i was saw by her mother friends..
after i left..
went back 2 tat place 2 wait 4 nth...
her mother call n scold me lik siao lik tat...
but i was ready tat her mother will scold me le...
i am oso really tat after her mother...
rebecca will call n scold me oso de..
haha
i was rite...
she call n scold me lik a dogshit...
then she was there sayiin...
say tat do i know y my w0rk place ppl all don lik me..
say tat i not even doiin a gd job at all...
i was darn down...
then she say she can call police bcuz i go in2 her house wif out adult at hm...
i was lik thinkiin.. shit..
i just told her she wan call just call...
but till now the police haven come...
i think she never make a report...
nayb...
then after she hang...
i call 1 of my w0rkiin friends...
told him wat happen..
n ask him really am i not doiin a fine job in w0rkiin...
he was lik huh??
he say no...
n some more in fact i did a better job then the others...
tat wat wat he told me...
was lik the other side of wat rebecca say about me...
after tat...
i call my manger...
my w0rk place head manger...
i asked him tat am i doiin a fine job in w0rk ma??
if not doiin a fine job...
is better tat i leave..
anyway there is alot of ppl tat i w0rk wif don lik me...
is it not better ma??
but my manger told me tat i doiin a fine job...
told me 2 don care about they say about me...
just do my job..get my pay tat all...
i was tat then cool down...
but think of it...
if really i not doiin a gd job in w0rk...
in BQT they wont haf let me w0rk so long de ma....
just wat my another BQT friends say...
is just wat the other see...
if they really wan 2 see how i w0rk see how i do things...
n 2 really know how am i they wont lik this 2 me de...
is not my fault..
is just how the others thinks....
haix
he is rite...
now..
i just do wat i should do le...

2day is rebecca bday...
send her a sms n a friendster message...
hopfully she wont find it irritatiin ba...
some more 2day get back o level marks...
haven see how much i got...
i reall don haf high hope of gettiin high marks la...
haha
some more 2day my laptop die le...
so sad lor...