old life new time

is been a long time since i blog again...
alot of things have change le...
yet feeling is still the old self..
i got a gf le but yet..
haix..
the feelin of lost have never been lost..
is not bcuz i still have feeling for rebecca tat cause me lost..
is just tat i have lost hope in feelin..
haiz..
y will things will bcome till lik this???
my past self is fightin to get out..
no no no i should not say my past self...
should say the inner bad of me is growin..
the gd thing is i wont do things is bad..
but just relationship part will hurt someone...
haix...
i may goiin soon break up wif this gf i having now...
7 months together..
hope she can take it...

partly is bcuz of how is she is tat y i will wan a break up..
partly is bcuz i don really haf a feelin..
partly is bcuz i don haf other time for her..
she is a gd gal over all..
is just me tat y will break up...
i will make her sad n cry in future...
i don wan myself to hurt her..
no matter is breakin up or together, i will still hurt her...
y don i kill it now...
no matter wat i am alway a shadow...
no diff if i bcome a bad person...
a bad person is alway easiler to b...

i will b startin a business soon...
hopefully it will work...
if everything works, my parents will b enjoyin their life by the end of next yr if 2012 is not the end of the world...
hahahaha
i am a weird person..
as alway...
hahaha