wat wrong wif my dream???

shit lo...
i dream of rebecca again...
somemore her brother was in it...
the dream was...
i saw her brother...
play wif him..
then don know y he was missin...
then rebecca appear..
scolded me then went running around find him...
i went around findiin him oso...
in the end i did find him...
then she was very happy n angry...
after tat we had a talk...
the feeliin was so gd lo...
but b4 anything happen...
i wake up from my dream le...

haix...
nowaday...
i been smokiin alot...
n not been myself...
as in do wat oso can able 2 do or think seem lik my mind was else where...
i know i always don care things..
but i getiing worst lately...
haix...
i don know wat i should do le...
just do wat other ppl wan me 2 do...
never really care wat i wanted le...
haix...
been busy in army lately...
but...
haix...
hope 2morrow is a better day ba...

hmmmm...

hmmmm....

i tot my unlucky is gone...

haix...

it came back again...

hahaha

worst somemore...

bang bike 2 time

lost wallet 2 time

somemore in a month...

hahaha

sleepless nite again...

darn tiriin of life le...

is lik i needed 2 talk 2 someone..

but there isnt any...

does not means tat i joke around smile laugh around mean tat i am happy...

haix...

problem tat i really don know how 2 settle...

or is it i don care???

haix...

is true tat i got gd friends..

but..

they r busy wif their things oso...

haix...

i know is my problem...

but i couldnt cry tat the problem...

by the way...

i will b quite blur lately..

cause all the things happen have make me blur...

haix...

cant cry is a very big problem..

hmmm...

kind of lik jaslin...

but...

haix..

nth really gd happen when i lik a person...

is lik tat person wont lik me de...

as a stead la...

haix...

with the first look...

people will think tat...

i am lik a grewup kid...

20 yr old le still lik a kid lik tat...

hahaha

ok la...

i do have a kid in me...

but isnt everyone have 1 in them???

O.o???

is just tat i rather the kids side is out most of the time...

like tat isnt the mind at the most relax???

i mean...

when the time 2 b a adult...

i will b one...

but normally...

what 4 beiin so serious??

relax...

enjoy...

tat is what a kid will do...

that is what a kid does..

n ofcause that is what a kid know 2 do..

they r happy...

aint they???

if in life u cant b happy...

then what the meaniin of life then???

for me...

enjoy your life...

orelse...

what u do with your life then???

sad???

angry???

i never believe that a person never happy before...

is just that do the person really know about it???

haix...

when could i find a girl that i love as much or even more then rebecca???